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Mansuy colin's avatar

Happy to know you're out of this mess Ruben, your writings are such a fresh , insightful and authentic bubble in my internet wandering. . I'm sure this experience deepened you're already wise look on human experience. Send you some metta from france

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Ruben Laukkonen's avatar

I appreciate that very much, thank you, Mansuy!

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Bess Stillman's avatar

Reading this felt like reading about mine and my husband’s lives this last year. Beautifully written. He’s not cancer free but so many of the sentiments, especially the strangeness of social interactions resonates. We have been writing about our experiences as well: https://open.substack.com/pub/bessstillman/p/days-of-awe-the-clinical-trial-drug?r=16l8ek&utm_campaign=post&utm_medium=web

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Ruben Laukkonen's avatar

Thank you, Bess, I'm both happy and sad to hear it resonates. But that's what it's all about - shared resonance and understanding. Wish you both well and look forward to reading more about your journey(s).

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Rob (c137)'s avatar

It must have been tough.

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Ruben Laukkonen's avatar

Interesting... but, hopefully no next time.

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Paul's avatar

Sorry to hear Ruben 😔 Sending lots of love from Germany ❤️

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Ruben Laukkonen's avatar

Thanks Paul - all is well :).

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ALBERT GRABB's avatar

Bless you. Thank you. May your recovery be full and return you to wholeness.

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Ruben Laukkonen's avatar

Thank you Albert!

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Bess Stillman's avatar

Also the part about “losing the feeling of being young” is spot on. Theres who we were before the surgery on May 25th that removed his whole tongue and there’s who we are after which is 8,000 years old. Sorry you had to experience that.

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Ruben Laukkonen's avatar

Oh, I feel you. I heard it randomly in an interview with Barbara Brown Taylor, I think on the 'on-being' podcast, and was immediately struck by it and had to write it down.

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Bess Stillman's avatar

Love that podcast but missed that episode I’ll look it up

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Ruben Laukkonen's avatar

Yes, highly recommend!

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